the most horrific day of my parenthood by far!

So, i never thought this would happen, but it did and yes, i spanked brandan, twice, on his bottom after i asked him to take off his own pants. It was definitely called for, i had no other idea of how to make him remember what he did forever and not to do it again.

So it all started today after i put both of the kids to bed and i was pretty confident that they would both fall asleep. We did our usual routine of bath, story time, lalliby and bed time. So when they were both in bed for a while in the dark and we heard them yarning and at least one of them is snorting away. I came down stairs. Tony had suggested for both of us to grab some wine at a local wine bar that's only 3 minutes away from the house. So we changed at 9:30 and went hoping that the kids would be sound asleep after we come back from an hour of wining out. 

After the cheese was brought on the table and the wine was served, we got a phone call from my mom. I had previous told my mom, who was watching the kids to call incase of emergency. And i had also told her that it's ok for the kids to watch some cartoon for an hour or so if they did wake up and looking for us. But i never expected to hear what i heard from her over the phone. After Tony picked up, he gave me the phone, all i heard was my mom saying "they both woke up and the worst is that brandan opened the front door when she came into the office to get the phone. And he had stormed out of the house in the rain to go look for us". My heart just sunk! As i was trying to talk to my mom, i realized that she was on the home phone and it was going to be out of the range soon.  Sure enough! after a few seconds, the phone got cut off and i had no idea what was going on. Right after I told tony, he left the wine bar to head home and left me there to take care of the bills.  2 minutes later, Tony called and told me that the garage door was open, the front door was open and NO ONE, NO ONE was in the house.  I could have totally have snapped right there. Then Tony said he was coming to get me to come home and figure out what's going on. After the bill was taken care of and i was just anxiously waiting for Tony's car, i got another phone call. Tony was at the Pavilions 5 minutes to the house and there were a couple who was there to help my mom to stop brandan, and they had also called the cops not knowing what really is going on and just seeing a little boy running on the street in his pajamas in the rain and an Asian lady running after him with a baby girl in her arms. Quickly, i was hung up again. Not sure if i should just start walking home or not, i sat there and awaited with all my hair stood up.  5 minutes later, tony showed up at the wine bar's parking lot with the entire family in tow. I was so relieve and also so ANGRY with what happened. We had told brandan multiple times to not go out of the house without an adult. He is old enough to figure out how to use the child prove locks and is totally tall enough for the lock and i had seem him use chairs to reach things up high. But i had never expected for him to storm out of the house in the rain like that in the middle of the night. 

After we got home, i yelled at him so hard, i almost lost my voice. I could see him shake very time i raised my voice. I just so want him to understand why it's NOT acceptable to get out of the house without an adult. I asked him to take off his own pants, and i spanked him twice.  As i was doing it, i told him to forever remember the first time i spank him and never go out of the doors without an adult again. I also made it clear that no toys or play time for a whole week as a punishment. Tony then sent him to the bathroom and then bed. Brandan's face was totally pale from all the drama that he caused himself.  

I feel so bad for spanking him, i know physical punishment doesn't always work, but i just felt the need to do it so he will remember it when he attempts to do something stupid like that again. In my mind, he would have been ran over by cars, fell of the hills...I am just relieved that he is not hurt, but i pray that something like this will never happen again. Because I will always remember this day to be the worst day of my parenthood, and i hope brandan will remember too.