Pulling Hair Day

I just want to pull my hair out and scream until i lose my voice tonight. Brandan was talking back on everything i asked him to do. He was doing opposite what what he should be doing on purpose.  Something is up. I have spend so much time with them today, taking them to the park to ride the carosul and played water at the spectrum.  I thought they would be tired and just follow the routine to go to sleep.  

I finally had to raise my voice and yell at Brandan for him to eat dinner, pick up his toys and behaving like a good kid.  And i had to hit lexi's hand for her to stop touching EVERYTHING.  At bed time, Brandan was threatened for timeout 3 times before he finally went to bed, but then i caught him getting up in the dark to bring toys to his bed to play.  Lexi was even worse, she cried for almost a whole hour in bed, she ket asking for binkies but she already had one in her mouth and another on in her hand.  At 10:30, i just got fed up and i turned her room light on and took her out the crib and asked her to go get whatever she wanted. she walked around the room, went to the bathroom, then finally picked up a blanket on the bed and didn't refuse for me to put her in bed.  

Sometimes i almost feel like a bad mom, if i don't raise my voice, they won't listen. What is up with that.  I need to get a book or ask someone about this.  I can't take it much longer.